La Tahzan....

Kau calarkan maruah dan jiwa ini.
Kau carik-carik nama yg aku bina selama ini.
Kau rampas pintu rezeki alihkan kepada yang lain.

Aku boleh terima itu semua. Aku redha... aku cuba redha seikhlas mungkin.

Kerana KAU BUKAN TUHAN, Bukan Allah, Tuhanku yg SATU. Bukan penentu rezeki ku, bukan penentu Qadha' dan Qadhar ku.



✿ Aku bertanya.... Kenapa aku diuji? ✿

 ♥ Allah berfirman ~ "Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja berkata, "Kami telah beriman, sedangkan mereka tidak diuji,"? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta." ~ Surah Al-Ankabut, ayat 2-3 ♥

La Tahzan, ya Iza Zuhana hj Zulkifle.

Jangan Bersedih
Cinta Rasulullah Menjamin Kebahagiaan

Jangan Bersedih
Redha Dengan Anugerah Allah Membuat
Anda Terkaya di Dunia

Jangan Bersedih
Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penerima
Taubat serta Rahmatnya Maha Luas

Jangan Bersedih
Semata-mata Kerana Anda Berbeza dengan orang lain

Jangan Bersedih
Bila Disakiti, Dicela, Direndahkan @ Dizalimi

Jangan Bersedih
Sesungguhnya Setelah Kesusahan Akan Ada Kemudahan

Jangan Bersedih
Kerana Kesedihan Anda akan Membuat Musuh Anda Gembira

Jangan Bersedih
Atas Perilaku Manusia Terhadapmu Tetapi Perhatikanlah Perilaku Mereka Terhadap Allah

Jangan Bersedih
Allah Tidak kan Mensiakan Pengorbananmu

Jangan Bersedih
Dunia ini Terlalu Hina Untuk Ditangisi

sahabat2 kesayangan,

Allah memujuk dan menjawab setiap persoalan kita dengan ayat2 Kalamullah yang indah...

✿ Kita bertanya : Kenapa aku diuji?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja berkata, "Kami telah beriman, sedangkan mereka tidak diuji,"? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta."
Surah Al-Ankabut, ayat 2-3

✿ Kita bertanya : Kenapa aku tak dapat apa yang aku idam-idamkan?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab : 

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui,"

Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 216

✿ Kita bertanya : Kenapa ujian seberat ini?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 286

✿ Kita bertanya : Kenapa rasa kecewa?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Janganlah kamu bersifat lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman."
Surah Al-Imran, ayat 139

✿ Kita bertanya : Apa yang harus aku lakukan?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara kebaikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh (di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah, supaya kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
Surah Ali-Imran, ayat 200

✿ Kita bertanya : Bagaimanakah harus aku menghadapinya?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat, kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk."

Surah Al-Baqarah, ayat 45

✿ Kita bertanya : Kepada siapa aku berharap?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain daripadaNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakal."

Surah At-Taubah, ayat 129

✿ Kita bertanya : Kenapa aku tidak dapat bertahan?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"...Dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tidak berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir."

Surah Yusuf, ayat 12

✿ Kita bertanya : Apa yang aku dapat daripada semua ini?

♥ Al-Quran menjawab :

"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang mukmin, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga kepada mereka.."

Surah At-Taubah, ayat 111


~Esok Akan Merekah Bunga Yang HArum Baunya Mengusir Segala Kesedihan Dan Menjadi Penghibur Hati..~

Bila Dugaan Datang Bertimpa-timpa

I've just been discharged [yes, again] from HPJ. The admission night began with 2 nebs and 100mg Hydrocort failed to clear my lungs. They wanted to admit me there, but since I have a Psychiatry case follow up in HPJ, Hubby decided I should go to HPJ.

Eventhough we have a refer letter from Az Zahrah, the ED people in HPJ still wanted to try to clear my lungs before admission. Nebs after nebs were given even topped up another 100mg of Hydrocort, still the wheezing and bronchial noise is there. A total of 4 nebs in HPJ, making it 6 nebs altogether, made my hand tremoring like crazy, nak sms pun susah. Phone kept on slipping away from my trembling hands. Xray conducted, ABG taken [I HATE ABGs!!!!] to count my artery oxygen level, and that's it, they had to admit me into the same ward I was in 2 months ago...

First night ~ 3 hourly on neb and Hydrocort. Cemana nak tido gaknya? Ha... u guessed. I didn't. Kejap lagi datang nak buat ABG lagi. Kejap lagi ketip ketip ujung jari nak amik sugar level. Kejap lagi datang nak tgk BP. Tu jelah, sampai malam esoknya lungs tak clear clear. Tapi they reduced it to 8 hourly by tengahari tu... Masalahnya Hydrocort + food made my blood sugar level went so high it reached 20.3! Malam tu... they had to inject me with insulin. Be it remembered in history of my life, I've been injected by insulin 21st January 2011. I'm still young God... why... God why.... :o((

I was discharged yesterday after spending to sleepless and restless nights in ward 4x HPJ. ABGs were taken so frequently that my hands are full of painful bruises that I look like budak kena dera. My body is still feeling very tired and I'm still urinating quite frequently.

I really dont know how to react. If u see my face now, U cant tell how I actually feel. I am very very very devastated, but I forget how to show it anymore... With all that has been going on, with the rehab that teaches me to ignore things and letting things be, with my psychiatry docs telling me everything will be alright as long as I stay positive... I dont know how to react to all this!!

Sunset at the beach became reality today...

Its happy christmas for some...

But I just had one of the most blissful day.. Hubby made sure I caught that sunset @ PD with our Lumix GF1 today. Kyra had her first mandi laut and Jazzy learnt how to fly a kite! It was almost a perfect day without anyone went berserk or anything like that

Alhamdulillah. Thank U Allah, Thank U Babah & Thank U Mama for d tips of what to expect. Itsa very merry day after all! wait up for pix!

When 'Lantaklah~' Becomes My Fav Word

I think d meds my rehab docs prescribed for me are finally digging in. I feel awkwardly happy sometimes [tapi ada jugak la menjerit marah tu sikit-sikit bila Kyra up to mischieve] and also boleh berkata 'Lantaklah' to things yg dulu always bothers me. So, Let it Be. Lantaklah. Biarlah. Sumone else will bother about it. haha~ I now learn how good it feels when I LET GO.

Best thing, if I pray, I feel so serene and near to Allah.

Good sign. Alhamdulillah...

Oh yes, a word of encouragement.
Thanks to Litchin, tadi dapat gi shopping beli baju sekolah Darjah Dua Jazzy... :o))

I've been Painting...

When the doctor said its gonna take a long time for me to get back on my feet, I felt doomed. But  maybe its a blessing in disguise... look what I get to do....

Fire & Ize | Acrylic on Canvas | 2010 | 12 x 16 | Putrajaya

Babah has been bringing me pusing-pusing around town to wherever an art scene I know exists... we've been to CM, Petronas Gallery, Balai Seni Lukis Negara... and I've also been doing my Photography Project. Well not really project la, just nak brush up sikit my rusted skills... Camera Lumix GF1 tu Babah yang belikan... dia jaga macam menatang minyak yang overloaded, hehe~

Babah has been very patient. Tapi Sampai bila? Hope he doesn't give up.... :`o(

Vincent, Trust me, I understand...

Haf always been in love with his art... and his feelings, I feel d same way...

   

 Starry, starry night. 

Paint your palette blue and grey, 

Look out on a summer's day, 

With eyes that know the darkness in my soul. 

Shadows on the hills, 

Sketch the trees and the daffodils, 

Catch the breeze and the winter chills, 

In colors on the snowy linen land. 

 Now I understand what you tried to say to me, 

How you suffered for your sanity, 

How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

 Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

 Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity, How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

 For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you,
Vincent, This world was never meant for one As beautiful as you.

 Starry, starry night. Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

 Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity, How you tried to set them free.
 They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

Getir hatiku Allah yang tahu...

Derita ini aku yang menanggungnya
Air mata ini aku yg tak dapat tahan

Allah tahu, aku juga tahu
Masih ada yang sayang...
Pada yang sudah luntur sayangnya
Biarlah

Hari ini aku yang lalui
Esok lusa tah apa yang menanti
Biarlah
Akan aku harungi
Demi si kecil molek
Demi sekeping hati
Yang menyayangi diri ini

I'm Not Hiding... Allah is With Me!

I'm struck & overwhelmed with the recent happenings around me, and onto me. It's just so... unexplainable that you have to be me to know what actually happened to me. So... I'm not gonna lay the story here because I think Allah destined this whole thing for only me & maybe also for hubby who has been there for me throughout the whole difficult time. I'm glad we stick together.

Some people might think that I'm trying to run away from them, some thinks that I hate them, secluding myself from the outside world,  and I don't blame them. But, NO. That's not it. I just want to be where I am now, not running, not hiding. If ever anyone comes to find me, I wont stop them from seeing me. Like I said, I'm not hiding.

Right now, I'm not sure where I stand in this world, what's my position and where do I go from here, but as far as I'm concern, for now I'm trying to keep my mind & soul in tact, trying to be as close as I can to Allah, strengthening my Iman in whatever way I can so that once all these are settled, I could face the world strong and tough again.
I hope for those whom I love & cherish, friends & peers who haven't been able to be in touch with me do know that I  love you, always. There's no slightest niat in my heart to just break any bond, especially family ties.
Meanwhile... these videos are kinda an inspiration throughout the hard times... I enjoyed them, go on, u can too :o))

One Flaw in Woman, re-shared.

Flip thru my archive, go to November 10, 2005.

I've posted this... back then. Going thru a hard time makes my heart so tender once again, easily touched even with a simple manner. And I found this piece I posted once again... I'm gonna re-share this, to my newly found friends.

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this was so... moving and... *sigh*

By the time the Lord made woman,

He was into his sixth day of working overtime.

An angel appeared and said,

"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?

She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,

have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable

and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,

have a lap that can hold four children at one time,

have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart

-and she will do everything

with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.

"Only two hands!? No way!

And that's just on the standard model?

That's too much work for one day.

Wait until tomorrow to finish."

"But I won't," the Lord protested.

"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.

She already heals herself when she is sick

AND can work 18 hours a day."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.

"But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed,

"but I have also made her tough.

You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

The Lord replied,

"Not only will she be able to think,

she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.

"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.

I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak,"

the Lord corrected,

"that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,  her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed.

"You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.

They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love, and joy.

They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have. 

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes, and colors.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

The Sweet Scent on One Ramadhan Night

This is my first experience of such situation... And I find it rather... enlightening!

Mungkin kebetulan... Last nite was Malam Jumaat. Masih di Awal Ramadhan, 3 Ramadhan 1431H to be exact. I was doing my ironing, as usual when everyone else is already sound asleep. Approximately at 2.20am, I smell a familiar sweet scent. Toleh kanan kiri, tengok kot kot ada botol perfume or bedak tumpah nearby, tak ada. Tapi baunya makin kuat... Naturally, seriau sekejap, eventhough sempat terfikir, "Eh ni kan Ramadhan... so... it couldn't be..." But still, I switched of the plug and hurried into the room, to seek companion from my sleeping husband n Kyra,

Since it's already very late and the previous morning I didnt sleep after sahur, I decided to catch a wink. Terpusing pusing terpusing pusing,  I kept on thinking about the scent. Even terlintas di fikiran was... Arwah Nenda. Tatau kenapa, memanglah selalu teringatkan dia, tapi the scent makes me think of her too. Lagipun esok, genap setahun Hijriah Arwah Nenda meninggalkan kami di dunia ni. I tried to remember when & where did I smell this scent before, but till this post is typed, I can't.

I went to d door and peaked outside, nothing but serenity. No other sound except for the nightly sound. No one talking, no motorbikes, cars, just... very serene. So I decided to conduct some Solat-solat sunat, I cant say it's Qiyamullail in a true sense, cus I didnt sleep at all. But since Qiyamullail literally means membangunkan malam so, bolehlah jugak... Sesudah beberapa Solat Sunat yg diakhiri Witir 3 rakat... barulah dapat tidur. Lewat, tapi nyenyak dan damai. By the time Hubby kejut sahur, walaupun letih tu terasa, tapi idur terasa puas :o)

Adakah itu rezeki Ramadhan dari Allah untukku? Jika ya... Ya Allah... indahnya perasaan ini, syukurku padaMu, kerana mengurniakan perasaan yg indah ini!

Extreme Conditions. Unintentionally.

I never knew I could reach to this point; extremely on d move, 24/7.

I have been ultra-bz, I know I've said it too many times before dalam blog ni if u search the word busy banyak gila post will come out, but if a graph is produced to chart my bz-ness, I think right now it's totally at d peak.

I've never been so bz, that I could not finish SO MANY work I planned to do in a day, I've never been so bz that I had to forget about breakfasting with nice, yummy delicacies and choose a drink I hated since small instead - Horlicks Lite, itupun tak abes. I've never been so bz that having two mobile phones isn't enuff at all, d batt keeps on dying that I have to charge it 3-4 times a day, kalau tak tu, 3-4 hari tak charge pun sehat lagi. I've never been so bz that I can actually patiently wait till i have enuff money to buy a good BlackBerry or E72 or equivalent when I already have enuff to buy at least a basic smartphone of any brand, but honestly, i think i've been too bz to think of buying new phones, and camera for that matter camera dah lama rosak. I've never been so bz that I sanggup habis 3 takuk minyak nak kejar client within a short distance. I've never been so bz that I sleep only 4-5 hours a day EVERYDAY ESPECIALLY during weekends. I've never been so bz that sleeping during day time is 99% impossible no matter how tired my eyes are. I've never been so busy to ignore a pondan's comment in another friend's status that meniaga ubat kurus hanya sesuai dijalankan oleh low class ppl [although Rasulullah SAW dah kata meniaga is d most noble job of all jobs] and I really dun care if he/she means to perli me. I've never been this busy!

I don't know if the people around me can keep up with my current situation or not, but it's quite obvious that the kids are demanding to see more of me, I even tried to bring Kyra to work occasionally, tapi sampai butik I had to let her play by herself cus I'm bz with clients n customers [both are totally different although they belong to d same category]. Jazzy sometimes spend some hours in d boutque after school esp if she doesnt haf Kafa class but even that happens, I dont haf enuff time to look at all her homeworks, just the ones she complains 'susah' only I peek and did some revision with her.

Am I turning into a typical urban mom who doesn't care about her children? I really hope not! I'm trying my best to spend a lot of time with Kyra especially. I totally enjoy her company, she's growing oh-so-well and she's so intelligently talkative, just like Jazzy; they obviously get this part of their DNA from me. I really wanna spend a good whole day with her but I'll end up having things to do even when am at home. Ini nasib baik la mummy is staying with us, nanti if mummy dah pulang Sandakan, how? Are things gonna get so tight? I hate that. I hate the thought of that.

But do I haf any choice other than this? I need to generate lots of income not only for me, but for my parents, for my kids, for my siblings... SO I need to focus. Alhamdulillah, biz is flourishing. Soon i'll need to handle more than what am handling now. Parents is gonna pass things to me slowly, little by little. But at the moment, Litchin is almost 90% under my control alone. I'm managing Litchin almost from A to Z. Memang sangat terasa Litchin is my ultimate department, and at the moment Litchin is by far the busiest department! And raya is coming... OMG its gonna be puasa soon. I really dont know wat to expect how things are gonna be this year. Last year dapat lagi berbuka dengan anak-anak.... nampak nampak tahun ni... harapan macam tipis!

Mama's health isn't giving me bright shiny days. Yes we're all worried. But Mama is d key player to Emas Sutera's survival, she's not ready to pass things down to me yet. Maybe she feels I'm not ready. takyah tunggu dia feel, I myself feel that I'm not. But Mama needs rest! She's forgetting things, she's obviously tired, makin lama makin kurus, selalu tak sehat.... camana ni? I dont know! Sometimes even when I dont mean to hurt her she feels hurt. Ultra-sensitiveness, its d sign of old-old-age. But she's not ready, I'm not ready, papa, ntahlah I pun tatau what's his plan... so... *sigh* serabutnya!

I really dont know how am I coping with this, but surprisingly I am. Maybe the number 30 is making me more mature and steadier. Things are manageable no matter how ugly it looks like from the outside. I'm still able to keep things under control.

Come to think of it.... maybe Allah is answering my prayers, and He's making me tougher and tougher, day by day, enduring all the tasks n responsibilities I have to carry. I just hope I would not go astray, and I hope no matter how, no matter what, I could still keep my kids at the top of my priority list. And for that, hope hubby understands how things are with me nowadays too. Please console me when I need to be consoled, Encik Husband. Keep me calm, keep me steady. If it's not you who's watching my back, then who will?

Stop it now. CHANGE!

Do not push it till I steer to other directions, it will easily be done. Everything has a limit, especially my patience. If I want, I have ways to gain my freedom, and take everything with me, if I want to. Don't make me want to, because U'll suffer like u never knew. Trust me, U never knew.

It's been only me who's trying hard to hold on, I will eventually let go. Do not think I won't, because I will, too tired to mind this misery alone. Especially now, that I have better options. I won't wait till I really can't stand your negligence anymore, for I've waited too long for a rainbow. You once said there will always be one hovering in our lives, just like how u're suppose to be the shelter to keep me warm, but nothing's tangible till now.

I'm tired of being ignored, keeping things down low. I refuse to be shut, I have opinions and I want it to be heard. I have stories to share with someone who really cares.  Who laugh at my jokes, who smiles at the sparkle in my eyes. I want actions and remedy. Solutions. Discussions. Who are U to question my rights? U urself is owned by God, u're no holier than thou. No one's perfect, especially you. U're not invulnerable. Not to me. Not by me.

U don't live forever. U can't live alone. If U think U don't need any help, When U die, WALK TO YOUR OWN GRAVE. I may not even be there for you anymore.

As of Today...

I think this is the lightest and smallest figure I' have since the birth of Jazzy... and Jazzy is already a blooming 7 years old...

Tahlil Nenda and 100 Days without Aizati...

Tonight there'sll be a tahlil in Angah Seremban's house for Nenda... am preparing Caramel Pudding and Jelly to bring... Nenek... hear us tonight... we miss U, sorely!

Aizati, sorry I didn't go to ur tahlil yesterday... tonight's tahlil was planned yesterday but was cancelled cus so many of us couldn't make it including me n mama sebab one staff balik kampung kena risik.

The both of you... I've always remembered U in my prayers. And hear me out tonight, ya...

Ok... where were we?

I didnt even post on my birthday huh? Cian blog ni. Wait, didn't even inform Kyra had an Ophthalmology operation on the 12th, I spent 4 days and 3 nights in the hospital with her. Quality time... with a price.

Truth is most updates are done in FB, even pix goes to FB first. But i still need to keep sumkinda *archive* isn't it? Sp I will try to move things around, copy, paste, loading here and there sooner or later.

Am getting older and older by day... am already 30 years and 2 days old. Already *feeling* like a 30-sumthing already, and... already planning for my 3rd pregnancy haha opps terkeluar plak announcement. PLANNING ye, belum lagik. Body tak ready, time belum sesuai, and most of all I am currently trying very hard to discipline myself in terms of food intake, trying to eat more and more alkaline food, which is said to make it easier for us to get a boy. Tapi katalah yang third ni girl jugak... tak apa, syukur alhamdulillah.

Being 30 is not too easy for a young mother like me. I have to do many things in reverse. Orang sebuk kumpul harta before kawen, aku punya harta pulak dah habis masa kawen heheh~ So my main focus now is to achieve lotsa things that I've planned to get done BEFORE I reached 25; that is the age i PLANNED to settle down. Tapi disebabkan plan sudah bertukar, now is Plan B time. So I had to reshuffle my strategy thus my life.

best thing of kawen muda is ... I'm 30 but my eldest already masuk sekolah. I've attended PIBG meetings, I've gone to her graduation, I've mingled with other parents... its an experience I dont expect to get this early. It feels good, feels like I still haf lotsa time to make things better and better... kan?

Things haf been great in the family, which is my priority. Me n Hubby can tolerate each other more as we'd understand our likes and dislikes. Oh yeah, Mom in Law is staying with us, since February. I really haf to thank her, with her around, my absence is less felt by the girls. Well orang berniaga, I haf to be in d boutique most of d time. Mom in Law helps a lot at home... at least d girls and abahnya tak kerap sangat kena makan luar macam dulu.

God is really in my favour... I guess. Umur dah meningkat ni... nampaknya ibadah kena lag banyak. Makin hari makin terdengar kubur kata mari... Jika diizinkan-Nya, I'd really like to see my girls thru their life, sekurang-kurangnya dapat merasa tepung tawar anak kat pelamin... haha talk about getting old huh?

Am suppose to sleep early tonight to prepare Jazz's bento, but here I am. tido lewat lagik. Nantik nenek yang uruskan Jazzy nak gi skolah sebab Omie tak bangun tido, Aperkah sungguh Omie nih!

Yes. I am obviously happy.

We Won LCD TV 42"???

Korang baca post post sebelum ni? nampak aku tido kol baper? so pagi ni aku serious weng.

Tiba tib a dapat call aku menang LCD TC 42" kat TM, kena gi prize giving ceremony kat TMPoint Kelana jaya 17th ni.

Aku yang ting tong ini, dapat news gila camni. Aku tanya dia, ha? serious? dia leh gelak serious ni cik. adui.

Wat a ting tong day!


[11:34:29 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: WAIT
[11:34:34 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: KITA MENANG lcd
[11:34:40 AM] Neo Soul Movement: how u now?
[11:34:54 AM] Neo Soul Movement: ada email
[11:34:55 AM] Neo Soul Movement: !
[11:35:01 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: CALL NOW
[11:35:06 AM] Neo Soul Movement: OK
[11:35:09 AM] Neo Soul Movement: wheres the email
[11:35:12 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i need to see the email
[11:35:12 AM] Neo Soul Movement: they send email
[11:35:16 AM] Neo Soul Movement: open the outlook
[11:36:26 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i dont see it on the website
[11:36:32 AM] Neo Soul Movement: http://tmpoint.tm.com.my/streamyx/contest/
[11:36:48 AM] Neo Soul Movement: *
 Winner will be informed by Telephone, e-Mail and Streamyx Contest official Website
[11:37:49 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: NOW THEY JUST INFRM
[11:37:53 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: EMAIL SOON
[11:37:56 AM] Neo Soul Movement: SERIOUS?
[11:38:01 AM] Neo Soul Movement: BERAPA INCH !?
[11:38:04 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: TAPI KENA GI TMPOINT KELANA JAYA 16 OR 17
[11:38:04 AM] Neo Soul Movement: 32? or 40?
[11:38:07 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: 42
[11:38:13 AM] Neo Soul Movement: BIAR BETUL
[11:38:15 AM] Neo Soul Movement: PEGI BILA !!!?
[11:38:24 AM] Neo Soul Movement: NAK KUTIP !!!!
[11:38:55 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: kita kena gi proze giving ceremony tuh
[11:39:03 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: nmasalahnya hari bekerja
[11:39:05 AM] Neo Soul Movement: confirm boleh pegi
[11:39:08 AM] Neo Soul Movement: no problem
[11:39:11 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: gila
[11:39:13 AM] Neo Soul Movement: KITA AMIK CUTI !!!
[11:39:13 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: biar benar
[11:39:15 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: :P
[11:39:22 AM] Neo Soul Movement: I DONT CARE WE GO !!!
[11:39:29 AM] Neo Soul Movement: AKU PENAT MENGARANG TU
[11:40:49 AM] Neo Soul Movement: slogan dia kalau tak silap: Layanan Mesra: Penjelasan Di berikan, Perkhidmatan di jelaskan, Kepuasan pelanggan di utamakan !
[11:40:53 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: dia kata tak kesah me or u gi tapi preferabbly me sebab nak amik gambar reramai meriahkan
[11:41:02 AM] Neo Soul Movement: yes BABY YES
[11:41:07 AM] Neo Soul Movement: I DREAM OF IT !!!!
[11:41:08 AM] Neo Soul Movement: WHEN?
[11:41:11 AM] Neo Soul Movement: WHEN CAN WE GO
[11:41:16 AM] Neo Soul Movement: I TAKE U THERE NOW NOW NOW
[11:41:57 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: aku dah la cam mamai n weng
[11:42:03 AM] Neo Soul Movement: thats the slogan i wrote
[11:42:05 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: lambat gila aku nak proses info nih
[11:42:07 AM] Neo Soul Movement: malam takbir raya tu !
[11:42:16 AM] Neo Soul Movement: they call u ek just now?
[11:42:18 AM] Neo Soul Movement: nanti check email u
[11:42:20 AM] Neo Soul Movement: bukak outlook tu
[11:43:14 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i tengah excited ni
[11:43:16 AM] Neo Soul Movement: hahaha
[11:43:24 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: nama dia kris
[11:43:26 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i mmg tengah dpt ilham malam tu buat slogan tu
[11:43:40 AM] Neo Soul Movement: u ada minta no telefon dia?
[11:43:47 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: ada no tel dia ni
[11:43:51 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: adoi aku dah la mamai
[11:43:54 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: aperkah ini
[11:44:47 AM] Neo Soul Movement: ok sweet
[11:45:04 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i buat slogan tu tiru slogan 1malaysia
[11:45:05 AM] Neo Soul Movement: haha
[11:45:36 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: aku siap tanya dia serius ke
[11:45:41 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: dia leh gelak serious cik
[11:45:55 AM] Neo Soul Movement: dia ni dari marketing department ke?
[11:46:03 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: ha kau tatau aku weng
[11:46:06 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: aku cam ha?
[11:46:08 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: apa??
[11:46:12 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: ha yeke?
[11:47:05 AM] Neo Soul Movement: apa lagi dia cakap
[11:47:09 AM] Neo Soul Movement: bila nak amik hadiah tu
[11:47:30 AM] Neo Soul Movement: http://tmpoint.tm.com.my/streamyx/contest/oct09/photo53.htm
[11:47:54 AM] Neo Soul Movement: nanti kita anak beranak pi amik gambar !
[11:49:25 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: abah apasal aku cam slow je arini adui
[11:51:01 AM] Neo Soul Movement: dia bagi toshiba tu !
[11:51:03 AM] Neo Soul Movement: http://tmpoint.tm.com.my/streamyx/contest/oct09/photo48.htm
[11:51:03 AM] Neo Soul Movement: hahaha
[11:51:08 AM] Neo Soul Movement: hope full HD !!!
[11:51:19 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: i dah confirmkan
[11:51:22 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: 17hb
[11:51:24 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: pagi
[11:51:27 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: dia call again
[11:51:31 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: dia nak i datang jugak no reps
[11:51:32 AM] Neo Soul Movement: SWEET !!!
[11:51:43 AM] Neo Soul Movement: TAKPE WE GO !
I TAKE LEAVE !!!
[11:52:59 AM] Neo Soul Movement: TAKPE WE TAKE HALFDAY LEAVELAH
[11:53:00 AM] Neo Soul Movement: WE GO
[11:53:04 AM] Neo Soul Movement: WE WEAR NICE CLOTHES !
[11:54:21 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: ya ya...
[11:54:24 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: but right now
[11:54:27 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: i tak cukup tido
[11:54:32 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: and need to go to d office
[11:54:45 AM] Neo Soul Movement: ok
[11:54:47 AM] Neo Soul Movement: sweet
[11:55:04 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: shit y myy fon takleh sms
[11:55:24 AM] Neo Soul Movement: mana i tau
[11:55:24 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: call bolhe
[11:56:59 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i dah mmg terdetik pasal contest tu sebab i rasa slogan dia mmg menarik !
[11:57:08 AM] Neo Soul Movement: kan lama i karang tu dekat 2 jam
[11:57:12 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: ok ok get over urselve, let me go to ofis first
[11:57:21 AM] Neo Soul Movement: ok
[11:57:21 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: mama dahla tgh membebel suruh i brenti
[11:57:25 AM] Neo Soul Movement: safe driving
[11:57:31 AM] Neo Soul Movement: i need u for the 42 LCD !
[11:57:32 AM] binxz.hj.zulkifle: yeah i need dat