Lost another good soul...

I do not know how to type this post, cus I dont want to hurt anyone who loved her.

She's a good friend, an advisor, a teacher. In limkokwing, her desk was behind my desk, she was absent the first day I reported into the faculty. I was nervous to meet her, I heard she was a good motion grafix lecturer. But for all I know, she was a great great companion. We exchanged stories, went to lunch together and the best of all, reminded each other it's praying time. She decided to wear hijab later on, and last Ramadhan, I gave her one of my fav black tudung as a reminiscing gift so she'll remember me as a friend eventhough I was no longer in limkokwing.

But today... a call from OC gave me a terrible shock. I couldn't describe how I was trembling holding my cell to hear that she's gone. Scenes of flashbacks suddenly appear in my eyes. And most sadly... the loved ones she left behind.

Aizati Aziz, U'll be missed. I pray that God bless you and moga bahagia di sana... Hope to meet u in heaven... al-Fatihah.

What a successful event!

Letih dari open house semalam masih berbaki, but it's all worth it. Semua plan untuk hari ni terpaksa cancel, maaf kepada yang meng-invite kami ke open house mereka pulak today cus all four of us flat habes, budak-budak pun sama. mana taknya, everytime orang datang diorang naik turun tangga! [for those who's been to my house u know why lah kan]

It was my first 'Laksa' attempt and alhamdulillah everyone who came boleh telan hehe. Ala tapikan water dispenser tu buat perangai pulak tersumbat satu hal, dripping lagi. i think Azam dah fix kan semalam, tataula. Last guest left at 10.30p.m., kemas kemas, mandi mandi, Azam mop lantai, me cuci dapur, i get to finally sleep at 2.40a.m. Kata orang badan kalo dah penat tidur memang nyenyak; i think it was a very deep one, tak sedar langsung sampai ke pagi, jarang i sleep camtu.

Much thanks, rasanya we can never show how we appreciate to those who came, especially d first timers. Those who can't make it hope there'll be next time :) Guest list according to time they came [kalo tertinggal do update me] ::
~ Dib n Zen n Aliya Sofea [aku rasa aku salah eja ni, hmm
~ Achik, bro Ridzuan n kids
~ Kak Ida, abg Mail & Kids
~ Man Kajang & kak Ruby [wife] ~ Nadia, Hubby n Adeena
~ Man Mimos & Family
~ Adar & Fares ~ Mama Ruby Ayra & abg Zul
~ makcik Pani, uncle Zali n kids

Appreciation also goes to ::
~ Hubby - for money, support [full or partial?] & d hand-shake after all guest has depart
~ Mama - for the never-ending quarell which makes me more bersemangat to do d open house
~ Papa - for informing me warta takdek laksa so dat i dun hafto go there menambah kan penat je
~ Mein - for menemankan aku masak & prep dr pukul 3 pagi walopun aku kena bagi arahan step by step
~ Jazzy n Khayra - penyambut tetamu n noise maker of d day
~ My customers for giving me extra income and making this open house posibble
~ Parkson - for selling my new awesome Arcrylic Partition Tray to putmy ulam laksa at a price i can afford better
~ Jusco - for selling pretty clay bowls for RM1.90, even buying 10 of em it cost me less than RM20 :oD also for selling awesome laksa ingredients, takyah gi pasar basah [me livin' large?]
~ Carrefour - for selling many things at cheap prices
~ dat gerai sayur i dun usually go to @ Pasar Tani Mega Putrajaya - for selling laksa basah when i searched at so many places tak ada!
~ McD Alamanda - for serving us our food when i'm bz makin' prep n work at d same time. Tapi aku geram betul dengan budak kaunter tu, lembap. Aku ni dahla lari dari kelas, dia boleh slow slow dengan lembap dia kan aduh geram sampai sekarang sebab satu jam beratur pastiu dia punya lambat punya pasal aku kelam kabut sampai bubur McD tumpah.
~ Limkokwing - for giving me salary [cukup ke tak ke tidak relevan dalam hal ini] and adding to my tiredness due to the bzness due to the ISO thingy [korang paham ke tak apa aku cakap ni?]

to my peers @ luct kalau ada yang terbaca, sorry eh i only invited a few ppl but they coudln't make it. but i do intend to bring some food tomorrow, kita open 'staffroom' plak hehe. sorry, but my house isn't ready yet for u guys. segan :op

Penat; but successful. Hope to do better next time!

Kawan. Sahabat.

We're freakin bz making a lot of changes, improvements and so many things in d office due to ISO thingy. Among other things, getting myself a teaching permit. In order to do so i need 2 referees who had known me for at least five years.

So I called a few friends... only one returned my calls. Thank God, both wife n hubby knew me back from MOZAC in 1996. Thanks Dib n Zen.

Update :: 9.05p.m.
Has returned my call after work, so did Achik. Much thanks tapi aku pun tadi dah gi umah Dib... got d signatures from both hubby n wife and dapat la nengok yg comel sorang tu, dah besar dah [apa korang panggil dia aa Dib?] tulah saper suruh bagi borang tu semua last minute, tgk aku dah stress. dah lah aku ditambahkan stress melayan mama punya menopausal syndrome, aduh pening. Boss siap ada hati maki aku tadi tu bila aku nak reason out aku tanak stayback esok [FOR GOD'S SAKE AKU NAK MASAK!] tapi wattodo... this is life kan. Aku ni hamba je.

Congratulations to a great mother!

She broke d news amidst my busy day yesterday...

New baby in town... whee... hope baby brings the best to her family. 5 weeks pregnant, yeap quite a long way to go but i bet she'll enjoy every single bit of the pregnancy. May Allah protects her and baby throughout their journey of togetherness. Congrats to Achik & En. RIdzwan!

Congrats Faren!

Faren has joined Les Copaque production, yes Upin n Ipin, Geng the Movie and my current favourite ad ~ biarkan anak anda menangis jangan anda menagis team. Alhamdulillah. geng geng ADoM Class of 2006ramai yg dah dapat decent job termasuk aku :) Mana yg baru balik overseas [for their degree] pun nampaknya dah ada offer menanti ~ Naim just met him the other day in college. yg lom balik pun ada offer dengarnya ~ Afza. Syukur. mana yang belum balik jangan risau Kak Zaza ada, meh bak sini resume dan bersedia untuk jadik cheerleader dan pakar penyusun kerusi hehe.

Last Sunday Bday mama n day before Bday ateem. Shopping shopping shoppinngggg we went in Midvalley but mostly paid by mama. ha'ah bday girl kena pow hahahahha dah dia yg paling kaya, kami ni apa je dia CEO hahahahah. End of the day we bought Big Apple donuts. AND MY CURRENT FAV DONUT IS BIG APPLE'S AVP2!!!!! whoaaaaaaa chocolate rushhhhhh~! Every week gi TLS, tapi badan aku tak turun turun angkara donut itu. Takpe asalakan tak sakit dah la... menjaga kesihatan jantung :op~~

dah berapa bday berlalu.... mana laa gambarnya ni.... aku bz weiiii aku bz sangat bz!!!!!! kena carik duit untuk anak anak yg demanding... sorang nak swimming nak keyboard nak pergi kilang roti [esok jazzy ada rombongan melawat kilang roti] sorang lagi nak jadik pemanjat tangga negara [Khayra... suka sangat naik turun tangga, ada gambarnya tapi...] Sampaia arini aku sengaja amik MC to get a break. so nope...no picture yet :(

and i am also turning into a very slacking freelancer. kad kawen adar tak design lagi... uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~! NOTIME!

Congrats Faren! Proud of U!

Award winning Video by Faren :: Full story here.

And thanks for highlighting our country upon being interviewed ;o) We need more patriotic ppl like you!

who.says.living.our.life.is.easy.?. :: tribute.to.Achik.

Achik... memang susah carik kawan macam kau. Kau memang tak perfect, tapi kau sentiasa ikhlas kawan ngan aku.

Baru pagi tadi Achik mendengar aku berleter kat dia pasal masalah dia, petang aku pulak dihujani kata-kata hikmah dari Achik, when I face another problem regarding work in the office. Kenapa aku kata susah carik kawan macam Achik? Sebab kawan-kawan aku yang lain jarang membuatkan aku insaf siapalah aku di bumi Allah ini.

Quoting Achik...
Tuhan tak membebani hambaNya melainkan yg sesuai dan mampu ditanggung.

Dari perasaan marah dan sedih yang amat sangat terhadap orang yg bertanggungjawab membuatkan aku sedih dan marah, aku terus insaf, terus mengalirkan air mata sampai aku tak sedar ada orang tgh berdiri dan nampak aku menangis, dan tegur aku eh apasal nangis and aku terpaksa guna alasan basi - 'mata sakit tgk skrin lama sangat'. Itulah kspecialan Achik. Dia tak perfect, tapi dia boleh mengubah perasaan aku sekelip mata just dgn kata kata dia. ( walaupun ayat tu sebenarnya dia amik dari motivasi kami masa JKM KTC dulu :o) )

Sesungguhnya bukan mudah aku nak pikul beban menjadi seorang ketua... berat tanggungjawab ni aku sorang je yg tau... Dan membaca motivasi Achik, membuatkan aku bertambah sedar, tanggungjawab tu Allah kurniakan kepada aku kerana dia tahu, aku lah yang layak memegang tanggungjawab itu. Bukan hanya pangkat, bukan hanya nama, tapi tanggungjawab. Achik also ingatkan aku, bahawa apabila aku diturunkan cabaran dan dugaan, aku harus bersyukur, sebab Allah memberi perhatian kepada aku.

Humans. Needs to be checked. When checked, His eyes are on you ...

What a Kenyang Satur-Day!!!

2 parties - Morning-Noon :: De Bella Raya Open Day, Night :: Oja's Surprise Birthday Party

both parties were awesome!

Oja's Surprise B'day Party

raimy told me bout this party 1st n told me i should come, then her mom (aunty Fizah) personally called me to come. ah sure i will!!! aunty is a superb cook!! (perut mesti didahulukan muahaha).

the plan was yanna is to bring oja jalan2 n watch her 3rd Harry Porter in One Utama, until we signal her to come, meaning everyone's already @ oja's. damn, d plan works!! oja had no single clue!!she gave salam as she reaches home and only her mom, hani (sis) n haiqal(bro) answered d salam (while others, of course, tried so hard to keep d giggling down), then she stood there, looking at us in d dark, i think for 5 seconds, no one said a werd muahahaha...!! then barulaa we screamed SURPRISEEE and oja came to her senses and screamed like hell hahahha... it was so emotional actually, so good to see sumone so happy! especially when dat sumone is close to u and u care so much bout him/her. PLUS, everyone knows WOMEN LURVES SURPRISES!!!

had damn great dinner, menu was briyani batu pahat ummphhhhhh...!!! the managing director of Restoran Silarasa herself cooked it!! (used to be in One Utama, now aunty is concentrating in her other stuffs, plus some other perkara berbangkit, no more silarasa :o(! ), lauk was ayam merah, lamb, acar timun and kuah dal, and to complete, popedumss ummphhss... i had 3 rounds!! ahhaha (forget ur dream of having yanna's figure zaza!!). u guys should know this, i NEVER liked lamb, and i only took it twice before. but in dat party, i ate 3 ketul!! urghhh (now i'm suffering from d lamb-migraine la kan padan muka)and of course, for desert, aunty's ever-popular trifle... (is dat how they spell it?). after so kenyang we HAD to play musical-bantal! haiyo sakit bontot-ku!! but d best thing is, jazz had soo much fun too... he he

i've always luved going to oja's. check out my entries before bout having dinner over @ her's. i lurve to see their family, such idolic parents! i wanna be dat to my kids, u knoe, but me n azam are quite different than aunty and uncle. we're so panas baran n garang, i think, compared to thos two loving people. *sigh* i wish we'll be like dat when we're older, mellower... hmmpphh.. dat's really a good thought.

De Bella Open Day

Food was.. ok lah... but wat made it awesome??! We got a damn lucky draw! Nokia 1600 handphone was d blardy prize! actually d lucky draw was from a purchase of 3 aloe gels in a single receipt, and our entry was entered by mom, she sent so many forms, dat azam actually got 2 lucky draws, but rules are rules, one winner can only win once, so he got d blardy handphone!! but if they were no rules, he could've won a laptop too! ah crazee lucky guy. no wonder i married him. do nuthing but got new handphone, in fact he has been talking bout getting another handphone for personal use and leave his fancy nokia 3230 for normal use (someone is getting sick of having anonymous people calling him i guess - duhh). we were like berebut jest now, who should use dat phone, cus mine is a li'l bit old (*wink*) and he's got a damn fancy one, so i tot of changing mine, after all, he weren't be lucky if not for my involvement wit de bella, but after comparing my phone and dat lucky one, ahhh u can have it lah abah, muehehehe...! it's features are totally less than my humble nokia 3100's only dat it's one of d latest 20 nokia phones and it has better color by pixel, and could play mp3 ringtones. dats all. phewwhh! ok. i dun wanna... u can have it. my next phone will be an upgraded version of N92 or dat blardy walkman sony ericsson muahahah!!

see the phone features >>

the phone dat made abah so lucky :op~ owh but we got black color. nicer la actually...

Sweet Memories...

while selecting pix for my new frames, i found these among the pile...
who else.. this is me and my bestest fwen achik, look how gelap we were kena jemur kat telok kalong, masa ni dah nak balik KTC dah ni kalau tak silap, malam last. tgk la muka masing2 pun muka penat, kena buli dengan abang suhaimi dan rakan rakan LEADECKnya. lega, dah abih camp, jawatan masing2 pun dah dapat. achik, ni ke masa aku jadik ketua biro, pastu ko gatal masuk biro aku? he he jadik SU ke naib ek? tgk tu itupun aku bleh lupa. aku tau masa ni achik step down dari Majlis Eksekutif (ME) aku lak naik masuk Masjlis Tertinggi (MT) JKM KTC UTM. aha best punya shortcut :p. pastu tahun tahun kemudian achik lak buli adik adik JKM, dia jadik LEADECK, dan aku dah selamat jadik bini orang he he.

this was taken belakang surau mozac, masa ni org sumer dah balik holiday, tinggal kami mangsa SPM je kat skolah. picture was snapped by has (dah anak sorang dah...), and dat was me trying to kill sawiah aka dib hahaha. this was has's idea, shows how i was into photography even in skool.

from left to right, dib, me aka eejay (gedik giler, kan?!), maya aka nyotty, shamsinar aka bebek, and ainol aka kenit. we were part of the dorm H people. photo also taken in 1997, in dorm H itself. ye kami pengawas. aku, pengawas gangster, leh kena gantung skolah lagi, jangan memain. heh.

from left marlina aka meor (baru kawin aritu), salina my room mate in S10 KTC aka che li (tgh sarat pregnant), shanez utm + mozac friend tatau biler minah ni nak kawen, ha ni yg tak kenal saper hahaha sebelah him osso tak kenal ahhaha, jaja, anak nak masuk dua (aku kawen dulu dia yg sebok kumpul askar), and housemate diorang masa duduk luar (aku masih kat dalam, JKM la katakan hahaha). ironic, this picture is still quite new, tapi masing2 dah different status.

well... memories are sweet... ain't em?

Achik, dat's who she is to me...

Allah... the beauty of His creation can never be questioned
yesterday my best friend wrote a blog about me and our friendship. i was... stunt, amazed and honestly shocked to see how much she remembers. i mean not to say that i dont remember but... she remembers to the details, such wat dress was i wearing the first time she met me, u know, things like dat.

now lemme tell u guys my part of the story. looking back at those time in college, me n achik (the name i call her) seemed to be very different. she's very nice and soft-spoken, but i was bold and stubborn. when she's hurt, she keep it to herself, but not me, i can go to confront the person who mess wit me and ask her 'wat's ur problem?' but all in all, we're so much the same, we're both very sensitive people, we're both very comitted to our werk, we're both very active in the student board, we're both crazee bout hritik roshan back in those days he he... the list goes on.
achik luvs drawing. i remember she has this sketch book full with drawings... and she loves cats. so the sketch book was full with cat drawings he he...

i can say it's because of her i achieved so many things in college. because of her i was one of the student board's head bereau. she helped and supported me a lot. in fact she made me important. if it's weren't for her, i wouldn't even know who those popular leaders are. she's amazingly rajin whether in college activities or in studies.

we were together in almost everything accept we're not in d same class. wit my bike, together we rode through the roads of tmn u and UTM, searching for nice food, hamster food, polysterine, manila cards, photostating programme flyers, pelaka for banners... she still remembers my favourite food. remember those murtabak achik? we will try everybody's murtabak till we found the nicest one and promote to everybody in our block. kak wan n kak mar will always, budak dua orang ni... budak dua orang ni... hahah.

i was the head of Biro IT in college and achik was my assistant. i remembered one hari raya programme we handled was playing dedications for hari raya songs. we were the DJ. we played during sundays some people was so mad cus some of the hostels' speaker were pre-tuned loud, he he. and during that programme i lost one of my favourite CDs along with my beloved cd player which i bought with my first salary during my after-skool-waitin-for-spm-result work. another programme i handled was a programme achik mentioned in her blog. program tu nama dia operasi zang toi tah aku bg nama aku yg lupa diorang kena main chess n the chess-men are themselves with one leader to instruct. haa before harry porter kluar kat tv aku dah buat dulu jgn main main. but before diorang main chess they had to dress up their chess man pakai newspaper kah kah padan muka. best jadik director programme. u get to 'bully' people in our on way, it feels good to see our 'bosses' HAD to do wat WE told em to kikik.

and i remembered at one time my fellow team members failed me during the sambutan hari raya programme. we had to do promotion for our hari raya programme but everytime there's a meeting, only few of the members came. when we called all team members to do some banners and stuff, only 2-3 ppl showed up. i was so sad and i thought my team members hated me or i distributed the work wrongly. i end up doing the banner alone wit achik. i didnt go to class because i was in a hurry to finish my werk i was too afraid it wont be ready in time i just ask my for my classmate's notes to copy. i depended on nescafe n coke for days to keep me awake. i only slept 2-3 hrs a day until programme day. and who else was there but achik.


achik will always be my advisor. when i do sumthing wrong she'll say, tak baik jaja buat camtu. when i go overboard with my activities, she'll go, janganla sampai tak ingat pegi kelas ja oiiii... kikik. when somebody tells bad things bout me she'll be mad at that person as well eventhough it has nuthing to do wit her. i remembered when there was some bad rumours about me she stood up for me and tell me to ignore those people she said they're just jealous because i haf all d skills and d good position in college. because of her i never neglect my prayer in college, not because i was afraid of her, but she made me realise, who i am, if it weren't for Him, i wouldnt even be alive.

but there was one time when i really gave up... i got so tired with hostel life and decided to rent a house outside college. achik was busy with her practical, so i became bored wit the hustle n bustle of hostel life. and my stupid ex bf added to those factor and that was the starting point of d failure of my studies. i should've listen to achik, i should've stayed in d hostel, but i didnt. i ran from that life which could've saved my degree. i just gave up. so i end up only having normal diploma sumwhere else instead of having a degree from UTM. that's how important achik is.

another part which strengthen our friendship bond is.. remember i talked bout my bike accidents? well during one of that accident, my handphone accidentally dialled her phone number and coincidently the whole accident was recorded in her voicemail. ironic. that my friend, is what you call fate. it's fate that we're friends, it's fate that we're so close, it's fate that eventhough she isn't there to witness the accident, but God wanted her to listen to the stormy situation when some kind people lift me up from the road and helped me get a taxi to hospital, while i nearly blacked out. and it's still fresh in my memory how she cried when she handed me the phone to listen to the voicemail. she looks so sad, it's as though i was her own sister. i told her to calm down and said it's just a minor accident (oh yeah right i was fooling even myself) but she kept on crying until my mom finally arrived from KL to bring me home. since we're in this topic i would really love to thank Ayie, my head student board (who's also a father now), abg farouq, abg man, ebnu, farid, ihsan and everybody who helped me, brought back my bike to college, picked me up from hospital... waited until the doctor finally diagnosed me the moment they heard about the accident. to tipah (she's wit me in d accident and she blacked out maybe her head hit sumthing) till today i am so sorry and regret the decision to go to Holiday Plaza to buy programme's souvenirs that day. we could have gone to Perak instead we were caught up with the accident. and all i could do is read about the programme in college's newspaper, after all those hard work... *sigh*

there's so much more about achik n me that i haven't write. i do remember those things u said in ur blog achik. i can't believe u remembered my pink bunga bunga kecik baju kurung kain kapas the 1st time we met. and i'll always cherish the times we had and our special friendship. and now we haf rina to add to our list of friends kikikikik. thank U God for letting us meet each other. amen.