J & K Birthday Bash 2011!

Happy Birthday Darling!

I can't sleep last night.

As how I can't sleep 4 years ago, restless thinking of my newborn baby, who had been taken to NICU. I only had a chance to take a glance at her before they took her away, emergency-ly [is that even a word?]

I've been telling this story over and over again. That's how important the event was in my life. It's my darling Khayra's birthday... today she is 4, strong and healthy, witty and cheeky. Alhamdulillah! God's power has made her that way, eventhough 4 years ago she was struggling for dear life, with no blanket and clothing covering her under that flouresccent UV lamp, so tiny, so weak...

I've bought her a small cake for her to celebrate with her friends in Tadika Alif Ceria, but I've also bought her 25 pcs of cupcakes for her to celebrate with us family tonight. I dont mind spending for her. Abah kept saying I'm spoiling her. How can't I? She's my precious!

Selamat Hari Lahir Khayra Qaszryna Azamzairi.... Omie loves you so much!

Sunset at the beach became reality today...

Its happy christmas for some...

But I just had one of the most blissful day.. Hubby made sure I caught that sunset @ PD with our Lumix GF1 today. Kyra had her first mandi laut and Jazzy learnt how to fly a kite! It was almost a perfect day without anyone went berserk or anything like that

Alhamdulillah. Thank U Allah, Thank U Babah & Thank U Mama for d tips of what to expect. Itsa very merry day after all! wait up for pix!

Jazzy... HFMD :o( [worst thing, It was our 8th Wedding Anniversary.

Yesterday 17th May 2010. 8 years after me n Babah tied d knot.

It began with complains of sakit kaki after her exams in d morning. then sakit tangan. I didn't ignore, but gave a look, one look it just looked like normal rashes. Then she keeps on merengek rengek, well its a bit normal for Jazzy, tapi bila tengok rashes makin banyak n dekat tangan n kaki je, I was alarmed. HMFD was the first thing came to mind. Showed to Nenek Butik, she was a bit worried but tried to console everyone by saying maybe it's just Cacar.

I called Babah. Babah suruh bawak gi clinic. Tapi butik ada sorang staff je siang... I had to wait for Hazirah, our part-timer.

By 5pm she was already restless. Still payfull but restless. I dah tak tahan dah, mama memang dari tadi suruh balik takyahlah suruh Hazirah but despite that both of us knew I needed to be there, business reasons.  5.30 pm, Babah kata jom pegi Az Zahrah, aku pun melompat kemas barang and angkut everyone to Az Zahrah [Kyra ikut ke Butik semalam].

The doc in Az Zahrah didn't say much. But he does looked taken aback. He asked "Sejak bila ni?" I said "Tadi lepas exam" he said "Oh dia pergi sekolah tadi? Mungkin dari situ." Straight forward I asked, "Isn't that HFMD?". Maybe doctor ni tak biasa dengan mak-bapak yg banyak mulut and sangat prihatin tentang ubat-ubatan dan penyakit, dia kata "U're a very observant mother, but I cant say anything yet sebab dia tak demam. But maybe yes, I am not saying no"

It was our anniversary, so despite the tense, we still went to SOHO for a simple anniversary dinner. Jazzy didn't share anything with anyone else [usually Kyra].

Sampai umah I checked her mouth, intuitively. My motherly instinct was right, ada a few ulcers and Jazzy cringe masa nak bukak mulut. I was horrified and Babah decided to go to Hospital Putrajaya.

It was d longest night. Kyra slept at 8pm sebab tak tido siang. The house was very quite. I tried to go to sleep but my eyes won't shut. I checked my FB but there's wasn't many interesting status to comment on. Nak uodate emassutera.com.my lagilah takde mood... called Babah twice, katanya ramai gila orang, lama menunggu. Tapi finally I did tido, ntahlah wat time, I was counting sheeps. Tapi around 11.30 camtu abah balik... Abah kata memang ya HFMD tapi Jazzy wasn't admitted sebab dia masih ada selera makan. But once dia vomit, we hafto bring her back for admission... I hope not.

This morning I was having a hard time to pujuk Kyra so that pergi umah mama Ruby. Mama n Babah was pressuring "PLEASE PISAHKAN MEREKA" tapi diorang ni nak ke berenggang korang ingat? I had to struggle to bathe her, I had to pujuk segala macam bribe, dia nak juga duduk umah. Tapi tak boleh jadik, 10.30 i had to angkut dia turun, and went to Mama Ruby's. Mesti separate, kalau Kyra kena lagi susah, sebab dia kecik lagi. I went to school to inform about the case and sent her MC. I do hope the school ambil berat, takut ramai lagi yang kena... I went to Alamanda, but I checked on Jazzy by phone, I taught her how to use d phone before I go. I went to Alamanda to find her fav donut and air kelapa... Babah kata tunggu beli di taman warisan tapi biarlah untuk pagi ni dulu...

Its a bit tedious nak jaga dia... Kena asing semua utensil yg dia guna, towel, mandi kena ganti air... yang paling susah nak suruh dia duduk diam satu tempat, memang impossible. Budak besar tu mana lah boleh duk diam... tawakkal jelah.

I hope she gets well fast and tak sampai tahap muntah and all... and I'm taking d risk of myself kena jangkit too. Yelah everyone knows i haf d worst immune system deficiency case in d family. Ni pun dah start gatal-gatal...

Ok... where were we?

I didnt even post on my birthday huh? Cian blog ni. Wait, didn't even inform Kyra had an Ophthalmology operation on the 12th, I spent 4 days and 3 nights in the hospital with her. Quality time... with a price.

Truth is most updates are done in FB, even pix goes to FB first. But i still need to keep sumkinda *archive* isn't it? Sp I will try to move things around, copy, paste, loading here and there sooner or later.

Am getting older and older by day... am already 30 years and 2 days old. Already *feeling* like a 30-sumthing already, and... already planning for my 3rd pregnancy haha opps terkeluar plak announcement. PLANNING ye, belum lagik. Body tak ready, time belum sesuai, and most of all I am currently trying very hard to discipline myself in terms of food intake, trying to eat more and more alkaline food, which is said to make it easier for us to get a boy. Tapi katalah yang third ni girl jugak... tak apa, syukur alhamdulillah.

Being 30 is not too easy for a young mother like me. I have to do many things in reverse. Orang sebuk kumpul harta before kawen, aku punya harta pulak dah habis masa kawen heheh~ So my main focus now is to achieve lotsa things that I've planned to get done BEFORE I reached 25; that is the age i PLANNED to settle down. Tapi disebabkan plan sudah bertukar, now is Plan B time. So I had to reshuffle my strategy thus my life.

best thing of kawen muda is ... I'm 30 but my eldest already masuk sekolah. I've attended PIBG meetings, I've gone to her graduation, I've mingled with other parents... its an experience I dont expect to get this early. It feels good, feels like I still haf lotsa time to make things better and better... kan?

Things haf been great in the family, which is my priority. Me n Hubby can tolerate each other more as we'd understand our likes and dislikes. Oh yeah, Mom in Law is staying with us, since February. I really haf to thank her, with her around, my absence is less felt by the girls. Well orang berniaga, I haf to be in d boutique most of d time. Mom in Law helps a lot at home... at least d girls and abahnya tak kerap sangat kena makan luar macam dulu.

God is really in my favour... I guess. Umur dah meningkat ni... nampaknya ibadah kena lag banyak. Makin hari makin terdengar kubur kata mari... Jika diizinkan-Nya, I'd really like to see my girls thru their life, sekurang-kurangnya dapat merasa tepung tawar anak kat pelamin... haha talk about getting old huh?

Am suppose to sleep early tonight to prepare Jazz's bento, but here I am. tido lewat lagik. Nantik nenek yang uruskan Jazzy nak gi skolah sebab Omie tak bangun tido, Aperkah sungguh Omie nih!

Yes. I am obviously happy.

Birthday Jazzy 2010

We celebrated her Birthday in two places ~ Midvalley Megamall and later on the Cake & Candle Mini Party @ Padi Cyberjaya...

All pix loaded to D'Jazzy Bunch Blog :o)

NewGadget in da house~!

Welcoming Lappy Zappy ~ ur new family member. Acer Aspire 4736G. 4GB DDR3 RAM. Lovin' d fast-ness~!

Made possible by Emas Sutera. It was part of d *contract* hehe. Mekaceh mama & papa.

Today is a very interesting day :o)

First and foremost I'd like to remind myself, my siblings n peers that today is Nenda's 100th day. Let's recite her Al-Fatihah or better still Yasin tonight.

It was an early day at work, 1st to reach office @8.20 am, or maybe a bit late tagging in cus I took my time dilly-dallying walking from parking to the lobby :op~ Then as usual  I'd take care of my FB's 3 accounts' [haha] kebun & restoran before beginning to indulge in my piles of work. An interviewee came moments earlier, nuthing much to handle, just borak sikit then pass her over to Big Boss.

12.50 pm My evil plan worked ~ I've planned to go shopping today it's JCard day in Jusco Maluri since Monday when I saw the announcement while buying my fav McFlurry Oreo whee~ and more evil-ly I succesfully made Ira n Kak Yun to tag along. Aritu they said takdek duit la broke lah, alah hampeh sudahlah balik tadi masing-masing ber-bag-bag hahah [yeah am a bit exaggerating here huhu]. What did I buy in Jusco? Despite every instinct to check out personal stuffs, as a lady of d house I went straight to Household area which was already filled with tonnes of Malaysian middle class mothers scavenging for good but cheap goods. My eyes stopped at this pile of Offer Luminarc products, some of em i've been keeping an eye and u can say terliur on. Congak-congak duit ... aduih. December is the birth month of Bibah and that means ROAD TAX & INSURANCE RENEWAL! argh~! The Black Carine Luminarc dish looked sooooo tempting, I bought six of it anyways. Dont ask me where did the money came from, u don't wanna know. Korang ingat senang Luminarc nak turun jadik beals belas ringgit? Kat forum aku tgk pun abeh abeh turun jadik 20+ hengget SEKEPING tau! Aritu siap terasa nak main kutu beli benda alah tuh, tapi tak sanggup. Ni dapat 6 keping pun jadiklah! Esok-esok tambahlah bila ada duit lebih... sikit-sikit lama-lama jadik bukit. Pther than the luminarc dishes, I bought 6 pretty porcelain bowls yg sangat comel berharga RM2.90 sahaja each, harap maklum. Pastu corkscrew yg mahal, beli yg murah manjang hancur and gunting dapur to replace yg dah tumpul, potong leher ayam pun tak lepas [haha kenapa agaknya aku nak GUNTING leher ayam? Bodoh ke haper]

On reading that passage just now, aku terasa i'm transforming bit by bit to be mama. Aiyoyo~! nasib baik belum ada pitih nak beli display cabinet kat Ikea yg sudah jatuh harga RM129 tu lagi, kalo tak sure aku dah start mengumpul kristal plak~!

Then... balik earlier a bit. 5.40 dah cabut from office, informed Kak Yun, she will inform Boss. Maybe she didn't hehe. Alah 15 minit je pun, aku datang punyalah awal 3-4 hari ni. Kenapa? Nak kejar appointment dentist Jazzy... 2nd tooth extraction! I'm proud of both my kids, they dun fear the dentist. Kyra pun dah pernah buat polishing, just to give her early exposure. Jazzy only cringed a bit when the tooth was extracted, as a reward, everybody got McDonalds treat from Babah and Jazzy specially got Sundae Choc. My kids, they're trained with strict disciplinary by Babah, they rarely get to eat these fast food. In fact, I get to eat em more often than they do hehe. Note: am mama's daughter, all 3 of us were born to be spoiled and i know how hard to catch up organizing my own life after being spoilt, I never want that to happen to my own kids.

Meanwhile, Kyra got a little treat too! Wait, little? Her weeks-long anticipated Bicycle has arrived home safely! While Kakak menahan sakit di dentist, Adik get to choose her own bicycle. We promised pink colored bike, but then the pink one was much too big for her, so she got herself Blue Colored bike we're waiting to name. Blue ~ exactly like Cik Bibah. hehe. Sampai umah dah malam... sudahnya sampai sekarang aku tgh menaip ni she's begging ehr father nak tgk basikal kat bawah. "Abah bacikal mana?" "Abah bacikal kat bawah tuu~!" Babah can only reply "Basikal tu sihat je kat bawah tu, takkan hilang punya" haha. wattodo. orang terlebih excited. dah berminggu-minggu she was threatened to behave well if she wants the bicycle. hard work to wei! hahaha. Picture... nanti upload kat blog Jazzy Bunch.

So now... after kenyang McD... everyone is happy, and Omie is yet to baca Yasin for arwah Nenda yang dirindui....

I pathetically haf nuthing to update... but... reminiscing...

my fav pix of my two jewels is all i can update for now... these pix are so old... but stll my fav till now.

Well... jst to keep this blog *alive* while I am so freakin bz being a workaholic.

Untuk Babah & baby baby Umi yang dirindui

Pada irama ku berpesan
Lagu ini ditujukan padanya yang tersayang
Kasihku kau pernah dipersia
Lalu ku bawa cintaku sebagai penawarnya
Biar lukamu masih terasa

Sesaat engkau tidak kutemu
Bulan seakan pilu tiada dapat beradu
Begitu jika engkau membisu
Badai jauh dilautan tiada bertepian
Sebegitu cintaku padamu

Usahlah cinta dibawa bersama
Ditenggelami mentari di timur
Gelap gelita tiada bercahaya
Ku tiada berdaya

Kuingin selalu bersamamu
Walau waktu siang melambai malam
Bagaikan senja denyutan cinta kita
Penyambung hadirnya

Akan ku bina istana bahagia
Menjadi lambang kasih berpanjangan
Hentikan airmata pedih kenangan
Yang mencakar perasan

Engkaulah bunga cinta
Seharum wangi kemboja
Engkaulah bunga cinta
Di taman kita... sejiwa

p/s: Apasal Babah potong rambut pendek sangat? Tak best.

Sesungguhnya pahala-Mu yang aku dambakan!

Aku bukan seorang Muslim yang sempurna. Aku bukan Nabi yang maksum. Tetapi aku adalah hamba-Nya yang sangat hina, pernah melakukan segala macam kehinaan dan sekarang aku hanya ingin mencari keredhaan-Nya sebelum terlambat!

Aku mempunyai anak-anak yang perlu dididik, seorang adik lelaki yang bakal menjadi imam kepada keluarganya, seorang makcik yang kini hampir buta yang telah diwasiatkan oleh Arwah Nenda kepada keluarga aku untuk menjaganya. Aku adalah anak yang sulung. Kalau bukan aku, siapa lagi yang bertanggungjawab memastikan mereka semua ini pandai membaca Al-Quran? Jadi hari ini, setelah berfikir panjang, aku mempunyai sedikit ilmu. Ilmu aku tidak mempunyai kelulusan utk melayakkan diri menjadi seorang ustazah. TETAPI, dari melihat keluargaku jahil, biarlah aku turunkan ilmu yang aku ada sebelum terlambat! Sesungguhnya kematian demi kematian yang telah aku lihat dengan mata kepala sendiri sangat membuatkan aku sayu. Aku sendiri sudah keluar masuk hospital entah berapa puluh kali, malah mungkin cecah ratus! Manalah tahu, masa untuk ku tidak berapa lama lagi? Tapi jika benar masaku tidak lama, aku pohon di ambil nyawa dalam bulan Ramadhan juga ya Allah!

Aku mahu anak-anak, adik-adik dan Ucu boleh membaca Al-Quran dengan baik. Jadi aku akan cuba sedaya-upaya aku untuk mencari lagi ilmu yang semestinya belum lengkap dan sampaikan kepada mereka. Kalau ada rezeki lagi, mungkin aku sendiri ingin mengaji semula. Kalau boleh, biarlah Atim, Jazzy & Khayra hafal Surah Yasin... itu sahamku untuk di kubur nanti. Moga semasa giliran aku tiba untuk ditanamkan azab dan seksaa kubur itu berkurangan dengan bacaan Yasin mereka... Ya Allah... Permudahkanlah!

Khayra Qaszryna bt Azamzairi

My Proffesional Model, My Love, My soul

D Jazzy Bunch is active & alive

the blog of important events in our togetherness is much updated. I won't be posting much about kids here... for I wanna haf a specific location for it... events of the past which haf not been recorded will be added from time to time according to it's respective dates....
D Jazzy Bunch Blog

Update on my Jazzy

There she is, my sulung one. Enrolled July 2009 for Taekwondo. My hope, Kakak will be a Taekwondo champ one day!

Khayra's turn sleeping on a hospital bed

Khayra was admitted to Ward 2C (pediatric) Hospital Putrajaya last Friday at 3 a.m. due to acute asthma. She's now on 4 hourly nebulizer [2 hourly earlier] and steroids.

Salah eja jugak... hmmphh!

hmm... macam pernah dengan jek ayat ni kan?

I am now taking a break while Babah is in d hospital. Petang ni pegi balik... ulang alik hospital for the whole of my life. Yeah... itsa routine :o(

Sunway Lagoon 2009

Splish Splash again! Bubbah's Bday Bash in Sunway Lagoon :op~ I so need to be the season pass. every year pegi... kids la paling enjoy. Mein & Ateem joined in this time. I scratch my elbow while going down the surf board slide. degil orang kata kepit tangan aku gi bukak. padan muka. But Great time :)

Heal... Darling!

Dear Kyra accidentally hurt herself quite badly on the day of Maulidur-Rasul. There was a lot of blood, but alhamdulillah nuthing serious happened.

She tripped herself after having fun jumping on the mattress, right to the awaiting door. Her chin was slightly 'ripped-off', about 15mm torn. The cut was very deep, thus the unstoppable bleeding. I cried very hardly, my ready-to-go-to-office-dress was stained with blood carrying her, rushing to nearest clinic.

Clinic refused to take her in due to the deep-ness of the wound, so we hadto go straight to a very familiar place, the ER of Putrajaya Gomen Hospital. Seeing her bloody napkin and a letter the previous clinic-doctor wrote she went in straight no need to cue like many times before. Given oral anesthetic but Kyra was too restless to be drowsy. MOs decided, we stich her despite her open-eyes.

Babah can't see to many blood n needle. So me, the one who carried her for 8 mths in my womb held her throughout the procedure. How did I feel? I can't describe. I wanted to faint out of weariness but I keep telling myself I need to hold her, I need to show her my love. So I strengthen my spirit and hold her close. The whole time. The time when they had to EXPLORE the wound to see if there's any residue of dirt or fibre. The time when they had to syringe-off some saline INTO the deep wound to clean and stop the bleeding. Then came a very familiar small, sharp metal, the needle and the thread. Reminds me of my own stitches once upon a december...

The rest of that gloomy day Kyra stayed close to me except when I had no choice but to accompany mom at the Boutique... I rushed back to see her smiling again, but saying 'hssshh' once in while, prolly feeling a bit tinglingish at the wound... Today I brought her to work, so will tomorrow. It was fun and relieving having her around. She's still my agile Kyra, eventhough with a plastered stitch below her smile.

Heal soon... darling!

Kyra's 2nd Birthday Celebration Day 2 - Cosmo's World

Monday 12th January we took Little Ayra along with Jazzy to Cosmo's World @ Times Square, both of them get to let go off steam :)

Note :: Kami tertinggal camera, these pix are taken with my NEW SE K530i (Did I post anything on my 2nd phone became Kyra's SAMPAN?)

Just before pegi :)

Frontage

Yeayy naik train! Train ni kan lalu kat Umah Si Nemuk ngan Umah Aci Aci Bukak Pintu... takuttt!

>Nama ride ni Crazy Bus, dia pusing pusing laju [good enuff for kids aku tak rasa apa pun] pastu tetiba dia berenti kat atas lama lama ha haaa tak boleh balekkk. Abah tak naik, dia takut. dia kata nantik dia apuntah [muntah] hahaha

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Ni Merry go Round Pulak. Ayra takut sebab mata diorang besar sangat macam nak kejar Ayra.

Disebabkan Ayra kecik lagi, banyak Ayra takleh main tapi boleh duduk kat playground lama lama and ulang lang naik train and bus sebab masa tu Cosmo's World kosong, monday la katakan haha

Kyra's 2nd Birthday Celebration Day 1 - Mid Valley

Ha... nilaa birthday girl nya :o) 2 tahun dah baby Umi.

Ini pulak birthday cake dia.

Kakak sayang adik dah dua tahun

The hunting of Kyra's Treasure :op

All together now!
Dariii Jusco sampailah ke Toys 'R' Us kita carik hadiaaahhhh



Abah always wants d best for d kids, tapi tgk barang la plak bah oiii baru 2 tahun tuu



Kakak rasa yang ni pun ok kot dik



Nenek obviously also having fun searching for hidden treasures



Geledah jangan tak geledah!



Keira pun carik gak neh...



Cam best je nehh...



Aunty Mein had one of her 'senget' time masa pening carik hadiah



Uncle Ateem pun tumpang carik sendiri punya tapi :op



Korang cariklah ponek Atuk ha

Nekk! Jumpa dah nak ni!

Alaa tapi ni pun cam best...

Ha kat situ pun ada lagi Umi!

Umi bayar salah satu dari macam-macam hadiah :op Eh tu bukan credit card tau tu kad Jusco hehe

Memoir! Settle beli hadiah. Abah refuse amik gambar instead amikkan gamba

The Makan & Potong Kek

Tunggu food siap. Semua lapar carik hadiah Kyra lama sangat hehe

Umi nak nyala lilin ke bakar kek?

Happy Birthday to U Ayra...

Mmmuahhh ayang Ayra Ma

Phhuhhhh..! Saper yang tiop sebenarnya neh?

Umi potong kek penuh perasaan

Masa untuk MATAN

Sayang anak Babah suap dengan Babah

Another of Aunty Mein's 'senget' moments

Bukak hadiah yang Aunty Mein beli dulu!

End of d day was wrapped up with meeting Para Director Emas Satria - Beli Handbag mahal satu sorang supaya Image Jutawan DCL dapat diserlahkan :)

Jom balekkk! PONEK!

version 2 - Cosmo's World Time Square n with Prezens esok ya satu satu dulu