Ramadhan Menyinsing...

I am still at work... believe it or not. Sengaja amik cuti lambat, masuk keje balik pun lambat juga :)

Ramadhan tinggal sehari dua saja lagi... seperti tahun tahun lalu hati aku runtun dan risau, selalunya 'graph' ibadat aku memuncak di bulan Ramadhan, lepas u mula turun semula. bila nak sedar diri ni? bila nak maintain graph tu?

Spent my time at ma's butik yesterday. As usual ada saja staff yg buat hal. I made quite a good sale alhamdulillah. Nite we had a good berbuka time together at Yankies Hut. Ayra clearly had a good time walaupun demam... moreover Jazzy dapat geng dia si Ateem. Dila was wit us, mein awas around too. Cherishable :).

I just finished marking my 70 student's exercises 1 + 2. 140 artworks to be inpected! break kejap before continuing to d 3rd exercise, i flipped thru pix that i haf in this computer i borrow from SMK [which looks like going to be mine, cus he got new computer]. There was many of Ayra's pix when she was a baby.... baru balik dari NCU. She looked so different... I really miss those times. She was so fragile! And yes as usual bila tengok gambar baby ni mulala aku nak baby lagi. hish masih tak sedar diri...! Semalam pulak my cousin Siti [dad's side] brought her 1+ mths old Baby Muaz to butik, aduh sedapnya dukung baby yang amsih merah! hmmm... boleh tak kalau anak anak tu stay as baby je? hehe... Jazz pun dah besar sekarang, very independent... selalu kena marah. Dapat mak ayah garang, perfectionist lagi tu, asik asik kena amrah. dah pandai merajuk dah tu. Hmm...

Ayra demam tu... masa pegi keje tadi rasa badan dia panas betul. menjangkit aku la tu ari sabtu aritu i had a high fever [again] dia pulak sibuk nak berpeluk, menjangkitlah apa lagi... bosannya do opis ni, nak balik duk ngan anak lagi best!!!

Nak raya dah kan.... hope i can continue my pace, continue conducting Qiyamullail... Ramadhan tahun ni memang banyak dugaan! Accident lah, kena komplen lah, financial lagi... Sakit lah... i can feel i'm growing weaker and weaker. Masa accident [bodoh punya eksiden je pon] achik tanya 'kenapa nangis sampai macam ni? sejak bila jadi lemah macam ni?' yes dat is d reality. I am growing weaker n weaker inside. No more tough girl i once was. maybe because ada org sekeliling yg tak redha aku jadik seorang yg kuat? Maybe because ada yg mahu aku jadi lemah? doa mereka lebih kuat dari doa aku? Entahlah....

Back to work.