I finally surrender...

i hafto face it, my body is weak. i'm not in a goodd condition. not baby, me.

therefore, i don't fast today.

i can't sleep d whole night last night. Jazz was feeling unwell, she said her ears hurt, when i checked i can't see if its watery or nething, seems normal. but she cries every 5 minutes. at 2.30am i gave her cough n flu medicine as her flu got worst and she was coughing too. she went at ease at about 3.30am, but then there were cats fighting outside, so noisy i can't go back to sleep. so i got outta bed and did the mock up for my portfolio folder (industry CRAPtice assignment). i ate some karipap i purposely bought for sahur and some oreos. while creating d mock up, i cooked for sahur. i felt so tired n shitty. at about 4.15am i went to wake hubby up, but instead i hadta run to the washroom to throw up (a lot), and dat very instance, gushes of water came out from me (i had some problems the day ealier, it's posted in D Jazzy Bunch) and at dat moment too, my head when very light, but i didnt faint. i accompanied hubby to eat after cleaning myself up. i felt so weak and i decided, no, i can't fast today.

so my plans to pay full fastings this year fails. i hafto give in to my weakened body. well... we can only plan, but God haf his own agenda, so i hafto follow...