What a month to return to His Embrace...

sad sad thursday... even the weather understood ....

Allahyarhamah passed away in this blessed month. Means she actually get 'shahid kecil'. as my title sez, what a month to return to His Embrace.

my own experience of luved ones went away in the blessed month of Ramadhan.

Arwah atuk, father of my father, passed away just a few days before Hari Raya 2003, it was very emotional for me, for I was the one who told him to let go, the last time i met him before i depart from Sandakan for it was azam's turn for Hari raya (memoir posted in my blog 25th November 2003). But I'm glad that atuk got a chance to see my 1st child, Jazz. i remembered how i was so glad to haf one atuk from dad's side and one nenek from ma's side, but now it's been two years... for me to have only a nenek, thank God she's still healthy despite her very old age. Atuk, May Allah bless you, Rest in peace.
My 2nd Child... or was suppose to be. promised myself not to dwell on this anymore, it's been a year (time flies~!) but i couldn't help it (sad days has big impact on people). my miscarriage in my 2nd semester in LUCT, i didn't know i was pregnant until i lost it. but it was too early a pregnancy (7 weeks), but it's still devastating and emotional (memoir posted in my blog 20th October 2004).

even azam had a similar experience a few months before our wedding, also during Ramadhan but i won't talk about it. i respect his lost.

well all i can do is pray for their soul... to rest in peace. also to Allahyarhamah Datin Seri Endon Mahmood. Al-Fatihah...