finally

for two years, in Limkokwing University College of Creative Technology, i hold a clean record, in fact considered a good record. I never pass up my assignments too late, my lowest grade is B- for only 2 subjects outta all d subjects i took, i never mess with lecturers, in fact most of the time i'm friends with em.

Last semester my senior warned me about semester 4, THE semester, where they dump all enhanced design skills into our brains, and pushed pur fumble hands to handle mouse, trackballs, wacom tablet, or ANY pointing devices firmly, uncover our eyes to get naked seeing designs creatively, mold our mind to be extraordinarily creative. yeap, beyond limit. if you cant cope, u die alone.

i kinda ignored the warning, cus it came for the batch dat's not a favourite among lecturers, in fact to them, my batch is the best batch, also the current semester 6 batch.

but this week my clean record is blackened.

he was one of the best student, my super senior. he's only 23. he's young and intelligent. i've been admiring his works, in fact i did praise him in some posts in this blog, BEFORE he became my lecturer.

yesterday he walked passed me and my classmates swearing. i wont state his exact sentence, cus it's shameful. today, i had a progression check with him and i know i dont have much progression. why? simply because i'm prioritizing, like what Mike and Stefan and Nicole advised us to do, so that we can score on the subjects that we're going to pursue. but i didn't neglect Video totally, in fact i spent more time on it because I suck at After Effects, yes people, I admit I SUCK AT AFTER EFFECTS, i progress slowly. but dat doesnt mean I SUCK AT EVERYTHING! his favourite student suck at FLASH and I'm BETTER at FLASH! because i had an arrogant lecturer teaching me after effects. yes, he's damn good at after effects, but as a proffessional, he shouldn't compare his student's work with another, he should consider what is his/her interest, EARLIER, not now, at week 13, nearly end of d semester baru terhegeh hegeh nak tanya. and as a proffessional, he should not take complaints personally, or else, what are the meetings for??. well wat to do, you're young and 23, prolly still with raging hormones. *sigh*

when he scolded me for almost 15 mins (i heard sumone else got it worst, she cried). i curb the feeling or bursting into tears. all he said isn't entirely NOT true, but not entirely true either. makes things worst, i think he's angry with me because of my complaints. I PAID RM1k++ FOR THIS MODULE GODDAMNIT, i have my rights! i felt like talking back, but i hold myself. i learned dat from papa n azam. keep quiet. dont take mama's method of dealing with anger with this guy, cus it's useless. cus whatever it is, he is my lecturer, and he's damn good in what he's doing, and he's got paid thousands of bucks for projects when he does freelancing.

well i'm jest devastated. i haf mixed feeling. i dunno whether to feel sad, or angry or wutever.

i hate video. ironic, video is in the bottom of my list for majoring, and it's d ONLY subject dat i haf problems wit d lecturer. i neglect 3D worst, but d lecturer, peter, can spend time chatting bout design industry wit me, raimy and william for nearly 20 mins outside d labs, jest now. talkabout arrogance vs kindness.