PMS + everything dat happened recently... made me so demotivated and lepas mandi dah pakai baju dah siap i jest lie down on d bed termenung. soooooo lost, dunno where to restart and what to do now. class's at 12. half an hour, since 8.15 am i jest lie there doind nuthing. azam already far at werk. jazz prolly already woke up and playin wit Isha @ Kak Zan's. Joey, Mooshee and Kci prolly puncing each other outside my room. me, i jest do nuthing.
suddenly my gaze shifted to my pc. a sudden tot came to my mind, 'ee.. lamanya tak main game'. The Sims... Simcity... The Sims 2... Red Alert... CnC... Tiberian Sun... tu semua game lama!!! dah lama tak main, i i drag myself lazily to my PC, and my hands spontaneously dance around d mouse dragging it to d games folder and i played Minesweeper, i've never been playing it for years! i felt so stupid and my WMP played 'True to Your Heart' from Mulan soundtrack, if u guys could recall 98 Degrees? before Nick Lachey got mushy mushy wit Jessica Simpson? yes.. dat song. One part triggered my mind.
When things are gettin' crazy
And you don't know where to start
Keep on believin', baby
Just be true to your heart
When all the world around you
It seems to fall apart
Keep on believin', baby
Just be true to your heart
and i got up and went to skool.
as i walk down to d main road, i straight away got a bus which is going to P7 Terminal. basically i haf 2 choices, Terminal or Precinct 1, since this bus goes to terminal, so i had to go there and take another bus to Cyberia and switch to a feeder bus in LUCT BUT just as d bus pass St Mall, d feeder Bus passed us.. had to go up a taxi, apparently another girl's getting a cab to LUCT too so we shared d 5 bucks ride...
kenapa tak pegi dengan mama? hmm... masih kecik ati dengan mama. papa is trying to patch things up malam tadi he text me wat time do i wanna go to skool, at 4 am i terbangun n read d msg dengan egonya i replied sokay i'll go by myself, kelas start lambat. taktaula sampai bila nak teruskan rajukan ni. mama selalu camtu. suka spoil people's day, scolded me on my birthday on things i didnt do. dia marah dengan papa n mein tiba2 nak ungkit ungkit i tak gi keje padahal dah sms dia siang2 i cant go sebab final execution dah start on screen. if i go to d shop i cant o anything and one whole day wasted, dahla laptop tu lembap!!!!!! argh mama suka buat macam ni :p tunggula sebulan dua lagi aku nak merajuk. furthermore, IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY.
one mo thingy tgh bengang... one of my lecturer is pushing me beyond my limit. i'm not mentioning names ere but it's definitely not Ms Zettie. Ms Zettie is kind enuff to be lenient wit me as she hard my D: broke down but at least i've got materials for all my assignments i've redone sum stuffz but this particular lecturer... i dunno y but he's hard on me rather than to anyone else. he rejected my design TWICE while some students got away wit some i dunno wat kinda layout they did. i ilustrated my layout, put into careful considerations wit d elements and haf all d reasonings but nuthing is good enuff for him. students got approve jest like dat wit i dunno wat kinda sketches. i'm not sure y is he hard on me, is it because he known i can do better, or because he dislikes me. if it's d 1st reason then i'm all out to crack my head again but if it's d 2nd... even if i do bombastic work, nuthing will be good enuff. but problem is... i dunno knoe which is d reason, i dun haf a single clue. ARGH!
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