two years ago, at this time i'm typing d blog, i was in Az Zahrah struggling with contractions after being induced for 2 1/2 hours. contractions have been so frequent but my opening is still at 4cm... not a good sign.
4 hours later (u can imagine the contractions' getting much harder) the opening still hasn't move from 4cm and doctors said, 'this couldn't be good, maybe u'll need to undergo C-section'. i wasn't shock hearing the comment, for i was in terrible pain and i'd do anything to end it. i asked azam to call mom n she talked to the doc and finally agrees. the doc asked me, do u want to give it another 1/2 an hour? i said NO!! if u wanna do do it NOW, plus i'm afraid baby is losing breath... so they brought me in the OT at 6.45pm.. near maghrib time. a few digging here n there n there she go, 7.40pm if i'm not mistaken, a little bit black n blue for struggling of air... but she's my darling.
couldn't believe it's been two years... jazz is such a great baby. she's doing very well, growing very well and faster than we expected. she's a great 12kg baby now, so tall that she look a lot bigger than babies her age. she could already talk a few words fluently, barely any stuttering. she's intelligent, she's my baby...
i still couldn't get over it that i'm a mother, that's a huge huge responsibility. now that it has been two years, it's like amazing that i made it this far. despite some 'sourness' in our marriage, me n azam still love each other, well 'sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit...', right? wutever it is there sure is more to come. even worst fights should be expected, harder storms and waiting to struck. and i'm ready for it, i'm more confident now. i'm more mature, and more considerate too...
during the hols i've been doin lotsa things... i worked with my mom and become an important person in d boutique business. never thought i'd do it, cus it never liked the business, didnt haf any interest but now, i'm crazee wit kebaya nyonya, crazee promoting it, and batik too, which are the two very topic that's most recommended for my CD ROM assignment in my Interactive Multimedia class. i also conducted an orientation for my mom's staffs. i became their leader and facilitator and towards the end of the hols i found out that my appendix nearly burst and had to undergone a surgery to remove it.
3 months of those things and now i'm back on track wit my multimedia thingy. hope to be a great designer!!! got a few offers once i graduate later, waiting for me out there but i really need a strong portfolio. but look at my blog, dun even haf time to make it 'look' like a 'multimedia designer's' blog. no timelah... i will do it but dunno when...
we're gonna look into Macromedia Director, Flash, Shockwave and Adobe Illustrator, Photoshop and a few other basic of imaging this semester. only next semester we'll be doing animation, i think. nevermind, i could wait for 3 years, i think i'll survive another 2. if i haf a great job offer once i graduate from Advance Diploma, i might not go to Aussie. i need d money, and i need jazz... i just can't live her here, i'd be damn rindu to her, and of course to her father. susah org sensitif ni :P
last sem's results are quite great, got all A- except for two subjects, B. finelah, remembering how hard it was with my health failure and everything. redha je...
i hope all of my friends are doing ok too... cept for achik maybe tgh sakit ati but she's a tough girl, maybe a little angry but she's always haf the softness that cools people's heart. i did sms rina a few times, when the banjir struck t'ganu i was worried if his family house pun kena but luckily their house's at the beach so oklah... dengar citer werking in USJ rina? i havent ask further bout ur job there... kan? citer la sket...
i give it two years till i'm stable... ok mike dah datang bye
p/s:: mike is my SOUND lecturer we're actually learning bout music, dj, mixing n everything here
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