//Art// is very very subjective

i'm so down... since yesterday. since i came into the assesment room of Creative Studies, found my final artwork and flipped backward, and found a bloody B- and a comment

"Artwork was badly executed, image is not clear and it kills the idea"

uhukss!! i felt so 'sebak' but just couldn't cry. i sacrificed 2 nights of sleeping, more than two meals skipped, just to do the artwork, yet i got dat. *sigh* despite classmates and family comment that it was a nice painting (nice, not good) i just got a mere B-. see how subjective art is. it looks beautiful to some people, but to others it might be a piece of crap. kinda expected dat this kinda thang will occur before i went into LUCT but i've never felt this bad and i think i didn't deserve a B-, perhaps B would've been acceptable.

still another painting to do, actually i'm doin it right now but i really dun have the anticipation anymore. i dun care bout crooked edges anymore, i simply paint and paint... guess i'm so demotivated. people like me is very dangerous. even a simple shit could bring me down the drain. it's very risky to be around me. i wonder how my hubby haf been coping wit dat. oh yeah dat reminds me dat his b'day's cumin around, two mo days. got him sumth.. oopppss i dont wanna say :P

well perhaps i should start doin the paintin again... crap.